It’s crippling. And it definitely takes a lot for me to admit. But it’s true. I have an uncanny disability to stick to something. I can’t stay on track. I can’t finish many of the things I start. I can’t deliver on personal endeavors. I can’t give myself what I want. How else can I say it?
Let’s extrapolate. First off, I say most because that’s what I meant. Most. Not all. Just many. I also say personal endeavors because for some reason, if it’s for someone else, I have no problem producing.
I can’t finish that class I keep taking. I can’t finish that family photo album I keep buying materials for. I can’t finish that book I keep picking up only to put down. I can’t finish that song I started to write so long ago. I can’t finish sewing that dress I was supposed to wear for a special occasion last year. I can’t finish so many things I think of that I haven’t even begun to produce. I almost feel like I can’t finish even before I start.
So yeah. It’s pretty crippling. Am I juggling too many balls? Wearing too many hats?
I guess it calls for some type of change, first of which should be learning how to say no.
Step 1: Say no.
Then, I suppose I can pick a project and not do any others until that one is done.
Step 2: Pick one.
Should I give myself a time limit as well? Yeah. I suppose I should.
Step 3: Set a time.
What next? The hardest part then. I suppose I should just stick to it.
Step 4: Stick to it, but don’t get stuck.
Let’s see how this one works out. I’m trying to be as optimistic as I could, but there is a looming feeling of defeat and total laxness about it. If I lose to myself, then it’s my loss. Totally horrible sentence, but it’s true. So…
Step 5: Be accountable.
I’ll tell you my personal projects as I go. Maybe it’s easier to succeed if there’s an audience around. I won’t add Step 6 on here just yet. At least not until I finish one project.